Killed by Lightning

In astrology Uranus rules sudden shocks, in the world of communication (Mercury or the 3rd house) ideas can strike us fully formed through a sudden flash of inspiration. Through realtionships (Venus or the 7th house) we can meet somebody suddenly and fall in love in an instant. Whatever planetary energy Uranus touches it takes that energy into the world of ideas, inspiration and far seeing awareness. Uranus is the urge to understand the overall pattern in our lives. Today, I want to take a look at the natal charts of those struck by lightning and killed.

Samuel Brashear Avis (February 19, 1872 – June 8, 1924) was an American politician who represented West Virginia in the United States House of Representatives from 1913-1915.

Avis was born in Harrisonburg, Virginia where he attended the public schools and Staunton Military Academy. He was graduated from the law department of Washington and Lee University, Lexington, Virginia. Admitted to the bar in 1893, he commenced practice in Charleston, West Virginia.

Avis was commissioned senior captain of Company A, Second West Virginia Volunteer Infantry, during the Spanish-American War in 1898. He served until 1899, when he was honorably discharged. After the war, he served as prosecuting attorney of Kanawha County, West Virginia from January 1, 1900, to December 31, 1912. Later, he was an assistant United States attorney for the southern district of West Virginia from August 22 to November 15, 1904.

He was elected as a Republican to the Sixty-third Congress (March 4, 1913-March 3, 1915) but was an unsuccessful candidate for reelection in 1914 to the Sixty-fourth Congress. After leaving Congress, he resumed the practice of law. He was killed by lightning in Charleston, West Virginia June 8, 1924 and was interred there in Spring Hill Cemetery.

The Astrology

On the day that lightning struck transiting Uranus was conjunct his natal Mars in Pisces exactly!! This aspect indicates an increased level of Uranian energy.  It can indicate a rebellious time and we need to channel this energy into something which excites us and uses up this high level of Uranian impulse. Mars-Uranus is linked to sudden accidents in general and it often reflects a physical energy that is overflowing with excitement and during this time you can become a bit of a live wire sparking off in new directions. It can also be a time of sexual liberation or experimentaion in whatever field Mars-Uranus occupies. Mars-Uranus contacts are often associated with dangers involving machinary, electrical equipment, fireworks and lightining. Transitng Saturn also squared Uranus at the time of his death and he was powerfully aware of Uranus. Saturn rules old structures and reliable forms of security, and when saturn-Uranus meet it can shatter existing reality and old forms collaspe to make way for a new vision. In the case of Samuel the Uranian impulse was stronger at this time. Uranus broke through violently and entered right into his body. Natally Samuel had Mercury in Aquarius square Pluto, and this describes new revolutionary ideas. He had penetrating new insights.

Hernán Gaviria Carvajal (November 27, 1969 – October 24, 2002) was a Colombian football central midfielder. Gaviria died on October 24, 2002, when he and teammate Giovanni Córdoba were hit by lightning during a practice session with Deportivo Cali.

Gaviria was killed instantly, though he was not pronounced dead until arriving at Valle de Lilli Hospital; Córdoba died three days later. Nicknamed "Carepa", he left a wife and two children; he was only 32.

The Astrology

In this case transting Uranus was in an 8 degree orb on his natal Mars in Aquarius. Transitng Mars was conjunct Uranus on that day. Transiting Jupiter opposed his natal Mars in Aquarius exaggerating his Mars in the electric sign of Aquarius.



Geremis Segundo González Acosta (January 8, 1975 – May 25, 2008) was a Venezuelan right-handed pitcher in Major League Baseball who played for the Chicago Cubs, Tampa Bay Devil Rays, Boston Red Sox, New York Mets and Milwaukee Brewers. In his rookie season he led the Cubs with 11 wins, but he was unable to continue that success in later seasons.

The Astrology

González died after being struck by lightning in Punta Palma, Zulia on May 25, 2008. At the time of his death Geremis had Transiting Uranus in Pisces squaring his natal Mars in Sagittarius. He also has a natal Mercury square Uranus contact.
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Tom and Katie Part 2

Katie's Venus in Scorpio is conjunct Tom's Neptune. Tom's Venus in Leo also trines Katie's Neptune in Sagittarius. The mutual contacts between these two planets show a highly idealised romance. Toms beckons with his boundless emotions and he longs for her mysterious and passionate love. Katie's relationship style is all about deep passionate and intense loving and she doesn't enter realtionship lightly. She is like the forbidden fruit in this realtionship (Venus in Scorpio) and Tom seeks his solace and redemption in Katie. Tom's secret passions and longing for emotional fusion can feel emotionally healing to Katie. Tom's idealisation of Katie makes her feel more beautiful and worthwhile (Venus).

Neptune in synastry often reflects our feelings back to us. There is a powerful romantic tone to this relationship, it is both soulful and poetic. Tom's idealisation can at times be overwhelming. However, Neptune in Scorpio can become a little too addicted, obsessive and fantasy driven in his longing for the perfect fusion. Too much idealisation can be too much to bear for any 'mortal' woman and she is at times bound to dissapoint. Boundaries are less defined in love with this contact and the two of them may completely fuse together like a 'tomkat'. The press tend to fuse all our famous couples names together these days. I have always found it a little silly at times but we all go along with these cute pet names nonetheless. Sometimes the aspect is reminiscent of the artist and his muse. Tom's great poetic passion finds unity in Katie's secret passionate depths (Venus in Scorpio). On another level Katie's idealises Tom's creative and fiery vision of love (Venus in leo), she may simply admire him as an actor and she seeks her longing for fusion in him.

Now is the time for the real juicy stuff in their synastry, as we have seen they have mutual aspects between Sun-Uranus and Venus-Neptune these are on the whole pretty harmonious. However, Tom and Katie also share a mutual hard aspect  between Jupiter and Neptune. This aspect brings up the controversial issue of Katie following Tom's Scientology. We all know Tom is full on into his religion or spiritual practice and he has become there most famous follower. We are worried about our little Dawson's Creek star and we speculate whether or not she has been sucked into this religion through her relationship with Tom. We watched her grow up on Dawson's Creek and so we all feel we have parental rights to interfer if we need to!! The following reading by Liz Greene is quite startling and revealing on the Jupiter-Neptune aspect. A contact that repeats in their synsatry chart - Read on ...

" Neptune playing mirror to Jupiter's grandiose schemes, may feed Jupiter's natural propensity for inflation, and the Neptune person may offer himself or herself as the obedient devotee and disciple rather than realistic partner and natural critic. When pursuing God in the form of worldly ambition, they may create a mutual naivety which is undermining or even downright dangerous to both people's material and adaptation to the outer world. The dark side of the coin of faith is fanaticism, and Jupiter and Neptune can sometimes encourage each other to assume the mantle of absolute knowledge." Wow, their relationship themes are powerfully reflective of how we have all perceived them. When synastry aspects repeat through-out a chart the themes are highly significant for the couple in question".

Katie and Tom also share a mutual Jupiter-Saturn opposition in their synastry chart. This aspect can have a dampening effect on each others beliefs or view of life. They can both can swing back and forth from feeling wildly optimistic, confident and having faith to unconsciously feeling the others pessimism, doubts and facing reality.  Over time this may prove a more positive mutual aspect considering the over idealism present in other areas of their synastry chart. They may need to test their faith in the goodness of life.

Katie needs to have faith in her confidence, vision and believe in her own creative potential (Jupiter in Leo). Tom's authority and strong sense of social responsibility and his fears of not fitting in or becoming "too ordinary" (Saturn in Aquarius) can oppose Katie's natural faith in her own vison of life. While Tom's Jupiter in Pisces and his attraction to spiritual and new age subjects  is opposed to Katie's Saturn in Gemini and she fears expressing her thoughts with such complete spontaneity. Katie's mind is usually deep and serious and there can be a fear of the irrational. Katie's Moon in Leo is also opposed by Tom's Saturn in Aquarius and she can feel restricted in her emotional responses, this synastry contact has often been called the child-parent aspect and sometimes Saturn can be critical towards the emotional needs of the Moon. This can be acted out unconsciously and Saturn may show his resentment through coldness and defensiveness. There can be a disapproving manner in the way he may unconsciously respond to Katie's needs for emotional security. However, the bond here can be binding and both of them may have formed the relationship through emotional insecurity. Moon-Saturn is a strong contact for an enduring relationship and meaningful bond.
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Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes: Part 1

Tom and Katie's whirlwind romance moved quickly to the engagement phase. After dating only two months, Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes were engaged. They had an elaborate staged wedding on November 18, 2006 in Italy.On April 18, 2005, the twice-divorced Cruise called Holmes for a private meeting at his office. It was reported that they had an instant connection during the four-hour meeting. Dates on his motorcycle and private jet followed. On April 27, 2005, Cruise and Holmes, dubbed "TomKat" by the media, made their first public appearance together in Rome for the David di Donatello Awards.

A month later, Cruise infamously jumped on Oprah Winfrey's couch during her show and declared his love for Holmes. Then, he went backstage to pull out a shocked Holmes to the stage. Barely two months into dating, the couple became engaged after Cruise proposed on June 17, 2005, over a candlelit dinner at the Jules Verne restaurant in the Eiffel Tower, presenting Holmes with a five-carat diamond ring. The size of the diamond has been much commented on in the media. On October 6, 2005, Cruise and Holmes announced they were expecting a child, showing to the world Holmes's very visible pregnancy. On April 18, 2006, the couple had a daughter, Suri. On November 18, 2006, exactly seven months after Suri's birth, the couple married in Bracciano, Italy.

Tom and Katie have had some strange press coverage around them, and their whirlwind marriage was a shock to most people. Katie is much younger than Tom, and she quickly adopted to his way of life. A lot of people have said that Tom Cruise is controlling of Katie. It was rumoured that Katie had to have a silent birth because of their shared belief in Scientology. And of course there was Tom's OTT declaration of love on Oprah's couch.  This relationship has been a highly unusual one so far.

Venus the planet of love, relationship and affection conjuncts Uranus in both of their natal charts. Uranus rules shocks, surprises and being different. When Uranus is connected to Venus the individual is asked to find new ways to relate to others, and a normal stable routine in realtionship is often difficult for them to maintain. Often Venus-Uranus breaks away from what society considers a 'normal' relationship. Katie has Venus in Scorpio and Tom has Venus in Leo and they both square eachother, so there is a clash in values here. Tom's Venus-Uranus aspect is considered wide in orb by most astrologers (9 degrees) but I use a 10 degree orb for conjunctions. Tom and Katie also have Venus square Uranus exact in their synastry chart and Venus conjuncts Uranus in Libra in the composite chart. A powerful theme does emerge and makes the statement that there is something magnetic, unusual and exciting about their relationship. It can also speak of unpredictability and unstabalizing conditions between them both. The rest of the synastry chart will clue us in on how unpredictable the relationship really is underneath.

Tom's natal Venus-Uranus is conjunct Katies Leo Ascendant. This shows us why the relationship happened so quickly and why the couple fell in love so soon after meeting. There is a powerful fixed magnetic quality to their attraction here. Tom's Uranus in Leo is square to Katie's Venus in Scorpio and this jolts Katie into awareness of her own deep sexuality and sensual beauty, and she becomes aware of her own values. Tom on this level plays Uranus in the relationship and acts as a lighting rod to her powerful affections. However, it can at times get a little too uncomfortable because she values privacy, intimacy and deep love. Katie seeks a partnership that provides emotional depth. She might have felt a little exposed when he broadcasted his love to the world. Tom, however has Venus in Leo and he thrives on high romance and drama. When Tom Cruise is in love he is proud and expresses how he feels, even if he appears to be "showing off". Leo in love is often loyal and generous to a fault. Both Venus in Leo and Venus in Scorpio are placed in fixed signs and they both tend to be loyal and fixed in their affections. Tom's Uranus in Leo awakens Katie's identity. The ascendant represents who we are becoming and Tom's ease in expressing his creativity  and unique vision freely awakens Katies own need to actualize her personal destiny and his crazy antics free her self-expression. When these two met they were both surprised and shocked but their synastry reveals that there is a unique and unusual quality in their interaction. Venus is conjunct her Ascendent and shows he loves her physical appearance, identitiy and personal expression.

"I really just knew. It was an explosion. And she is just magic. And I really think that all men should celebrate their women. … They should all jump on couches for them. … When you find that woman, you should absolutely be unabashed about it. That's how I feel about it."

"Tom makes me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world and has since the day I met him. I love being with him. I love calling him my husband."

Tom and Katie have a mutual Sun trine Uranus aspect and this can mean that they have a liberating effect on one another. Katie has her Sun in Sagittarius and Tom's natal Uranus trines her sense of individuality. Katie wants to pursue truth and knowledge and she needs to travel on physical and mental journeys which help expand her horizons. Katie needs to be free and is happiest exploring all forms of knowledge which aid her growth. Tom's unique creativity and vision work well with her individual purpose. Tom's Cancer Sun needs emotional interaction and he needs to feel connected to the past and his history and Katie is breaking free and finding new and insighful ways to be in intimate relationships and break sexual taboos (Uranus in Scorpio). His sensitivity and tenderness helps her explore the deeper side of human nature. These two can be friends and find new and excting ways to achieve their individual goals in life.

"From the moment I met him it just felt like I'd known him forever. I was blown away. He's the most incredible man. He's so generous and kind, and he helps so many people, and, um, he makes me laugh like I've never laughed, and he's a great friend.… Tom and I will always be in our honeymoon phase.… Tom is the most incredible man in the world."

Katies Moon in Leo conjuncts his Venus in Leo and this is one of the most easy and comfortable apsects to be found in the synastry chart.There is an instinctive harmony and blending of emotions and artistic values. She expresses her feelings with great intensity and she is a proud woman. Katie enjoys being centre of attention and needs some theatrical drama in her life. This side of her may not have felt shy with Tom's grand display of affection. Katie has a natal Moon square Venus aspect and these two sides of her feminine self are in conflict. It can sometimes represent someone who is confused by their different values and security needs and she may have a too accomodating nature. There is drama and intensity here and on the lunar level she needs warmth, joy and to feel special, so she may reject her more possessive nature (Venus in Scorpio). Katie may show contrary behavior in her relationships at times. Part of her needs to withdraw in private and may show a more jealous side than she feels comfortable with. This can also show in her choice of partner. Katie's needs and desires are in conflict and she has two very different feminine faces.
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Venus in Aries: The Bold and the Beautiful

Kiss me Quick

Venus in ARIES seeks the ongoing challenge of relationship and she enjoys competition in love. Fighting for a relationship tests her strength and inner resources. Aphrodite affirms her self-worth and beauty through gaining the affection and admiration of her prize lover. Venus in Aries is the pursued but she can also be the huntress and her trophy is winning the love her heart desires. Love is often direct and uncomplicated with this type and new conquests affirm personal potency. However, Venus in Aries can fall in lust and love a little too fast.Venus placed in the first sign of the zodiac goes after what she wants and usually gets it . She is extremely passionate in relationships and headstrong, and she never sacrifices or loses herself in a relationship. Venus wants to maintain her independence and if she feels this dear quality of hers is being threatened she will pull away. Venus in Aries is attracted to those who have a strong sense of self and who's nature is as deeply passionate as her own.

The act of love for Venus in Aries is to actualize fierce independence, but love is also an adventure and she needs to know that the relationship is always moving forward. When Venus is placed in a fire sign her acts of love become more dramatic and exciting. Venus would hate a relationship that has become too predictable and stifling. Aphrodite when placed in the inferno sign has a sexually alluring aura around her. Venus in Aries knows how to get others excited and she turns up the heat. The love energy here is strong and it is very similar to the experience of falling love for the first time. When love beckons new feelings take over and she just loves the adrenaline rush of first love. The first stages of a relationship are full of wonder and excitement and the doors are open to all kinds of new possibilities. The sexual hormones kick in fast and she feels that heady rush of love. She can't wait to say I love you, and in extreme cases like that of Elizabeth Taylor she can't wait to say "I do" and usually before she has really thought it through. Venus in Aries can rush down the aisle too fast or perhaps like our George Clooney maintain his feirce independence in relationships.

Venus in Aries won't deliberate about love she can be rash in her affections. Aphrodite in the sign of Aries can be attracted to the physical appearance of her mate and sex needs to be wild and exciting. Venus is in detriment in Aries and on the negative side she expresses love narcissistically and selfishly. Alternatively she may end up in relationships where the partner exhibits these characteristics. It has been said that this placement of Venus is popular with the opposite sex. Sometimes her love can burn out quickly and so she needs constant new challenges to feel the buzz of falling in love all over again. Our fair maiden can also get herself into hot water with her mate and she may find herself in the middle of two men battling for her affections. Venus in Aries loves the attention and she can't help but fall in love with a man willing to fight for her heart, and she feels valued just like a prized possesion.

Acts of courage, bravery and show of strength can appeal to her and these qualities act as a powerful aphrodisiac. However, she can have a roving eye and is quick to spot the next possible new conquest. Venus can hunt her lovers down and she likes to win her heart's desire and beat all competition. Venus in Aries might thrive on short bursts of passionate love and she can come on too strong at times. Men with Venus in Aries may be drawn to high energy women who live life in the fast lane. He is attracted to her sexy style and aura of independence, and most of all that feisty nature. It is her strong sense of self that attracts him and wins his heart. This type of woman reflects something that he values deeply and he begins a 'budding' romance with this courageous lady.

The above reading is the essence of Venus in Aries and doesn't take into account the house placement of Venus or aspects. The individual chart needs to be looked at for a full examiniation on the love nature. Here are some examples of the male and female celebs that represent this category - with quotes on love.

Cate Blanchett



Quote: I love strange choices. I'm always interested in people who depart from what is expected of them and go into new territory.

Eva Longoria



Quote: When I first saw him, he took my breath away; it was lust at first sight.

Elizabeth Taylor



Quote: My mother says I didn't open my eyes for eight days after I was born, but when I did, the first thing I saw was an engagement ring. I was hooked.

George Clooney



Quote: I'm the old-fashioned type who prefers to meet a woman in a more normal setting. I don't like to feel that I'm being hunted down. I've always liked to do my own hunting when it comes to meeting women.

Albert Einstein




Quote: How on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?

George Carlin



Quote: Fighting for peace is like screwing for virginity.
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Patrick Swayze and Lisa Niemi Synastry Part 2

Patrick's Mars's is conjunct Lisa's Saturn in Scorpio, and this is a powerful conjunction in the chart. Seething sexuality, coolness, control and passion all come together. Lisa's cool character only heats up Patrick's Mars in Scorpio. We all know Mars is sexually excited by a challenge and that is what Lisa represents. Traditionally this is a malefic contact and has been linked to physical and sexual violence in a realtionship. It can be an indicator of this, but it depends on how the couple handles this difficult conjunction. Here is Liz Greene's take on this contact in synastry, "We are issued stern warnings by various writers that a Mars-Saturn tie between two charts bodes nothing but trouble, even the "harmonious" aspects. One is left with the impression that two individuals who find this contact existant between them should run in opposite directions. One might assume, on superficial interpretation, that this aspect ought to cause repulsion and dislike paticularly on the sexual level, as Mars symbolises the physical desires and passions. Why then do Mars-Saturn contacts appear with such great frequency when a serious emotional comittment or involvemnet occurs, perhaps more often than the Mars-Venus connection which is supposed to designate strong attraction? And why, rather than repelling, do they seem at the beginning, at least- to be concurrent with such intense and almost feverish sexual attraction?

This contact has a reputation for producing passion before marriage and increasing coldness and sometimes violence afterwards. Here the qualities of Saturn's sign , or element, or quadruplicity are inflamed by Mar's being placed there; they appear full blown, concentrated, rendered slightly aggressive, overt and sometimes slightly arrogant, and they are chanelled not only in the will energy and drive but, more importantly from the perspective of relationships, into sexual style and drive as well. Mars symbolises passion, Saturn fear. It is no wonder that the unconscious individual caught in this kind of contact is fascinated like a bird before a snake". It would seem Patrick's determined and passionate Mars in Scorpio wants to get past Lisa's defences and the physical energy is usually highly disciplined in this partnership. There is great endurance, courage and willingness to overome any obstacle. The patnership works best when they pursue goals with passionate commitment. Obviously there is the need to be aware that this can be a difficult contact and they have had their fair share of psychic conflicts that can at times spill out into violence of some sort. Lisa's control and distance can create passionate fury in Patrick's Mars. The couple have faced a lot in their relationship and this shows in their more difficult contacts. Patrick has battled alcohol, cocain and a riding accident that almost left him paralyzed, and his final battle was the fight against Cancer.

Soon after meeting Lisa, he moved to New York to be a ballet dancer. When Lisa came to New York, she moved in with him - but the romance remained unconsummated for a year.'I had to propose before we felt our relationship was serious enough to have sex with each other,' he said. Their relationship has been more romantic than any of his roles: he always maintained she was the most beautiful woman he ever saw, his best friend, and a better dancer than he.

Not long before his death, he paid tribute to her: 'I have no greater respect for any other human being on this earth like I have for her. Part of me says I couldn't have made it through without her, but, of course, the other part of me says I could have, but not nearly as elegantly as I have.'

I have demons in me. If I try to control those demons, they kill me... I have learnt to embrace those demons. That's why I jump out of aeroplanes and surf and ride, and test the skills I have.'

Patrick's Saturn in Libra is square to Lisa's Venus in Cancer, and this can represent Swayze's heavy work schedule. Saturn represents career, duty and responsibilty. Swayze may have felt a bit inadequate with Lisa, she feels the same in other Saturnian areas of their synastry. Venus-Saturn can be insecure in love and he may demand demonstrations of love and affection. The couple never had a family of their own and Patrick has stated in interviews that their lack of children was an abiding regret. The aspect can correlate with deep insecurity in the realtionship and possessiveness. It can also bind these two together and make for lasting commitment and longevity

Patrick's Pluto in Leo is opposite Lisa's Mars in Aquarius and can symbolise a hot and heavy relationship here. These two fight for survival and this can bring out some raw emotions. Mars in Aquarius is more ethical and detached and will ditance themselves from the unconscious powerful ego of Swayze and his all his sexual drive (Pluto). It can show power and control, agression and dark sexuality. The relationship had it's difficult conflicts and perhaps there were some magnificent jealous and angry outbursts. Lisa often felt angered with Patrick's slide into addiction and he was dangerous to his own health. He smoked 60 cigarettes a day and has stated that he was a bit of a wild boy. However, these two have amazing sexual chemistry together. Both were excellent dancers which no doubt channeled all this powerful energy onto the dancefloor. A great couple who fought many battles together. It was not written in the stars that this was going to be an easy ride. However, for both of them it has been a journey of transformation, healing and soul searching. The relationship touched some very dark depths but there is no denying these two were a strong couple. Through crisis and tough emotional upheaval they have developed both strength and courage. The final test was letting go of one another as death inevitably breaks all relationships apart.

“I thought during the 22 months of my husband’s illness that it gave me all this time to get used to the idea of losing him. And I found for myself, when I actually got to that point, I said, ‘N-n-n-n-n-No.’ It wasn’t the same at all. The actual loss – it’s like an animal all of its own... It made all the sadness and grief previous to that look like an intellectual concept. This sadness was on a cellular level.” 

Luckily, she has good friends on which she can rely, friends who’ve told her she can ask for their help whenever she feels despair is taking over. Niemi has been very self-sufficient thus far, which is one of the main reasons why she initially had some issues with turning to others for help, but she eventually got over that when she realized there was no way she could cope with the loss on her own. As for regrets, she has more than plenty – but her biggest one is not telling Patrick “I love you” enough.

“When the grief takes you, it’s like your body is not your own. I’m just going with the flow. I know I have to go through it. I’ve spent two thirds of my life with him... My regret is that I didn’t tell him that I loved him enough over that entire 34 years. I am so grateful for what I had and my connection to him, and part of me believes that I will see him again, and I’m just going to have to go on until then.” 

Here are the couple in a beautful dance together. This is very emotional to watch. It's sad to see such an amazing couple parted. Until they are reunited again in spirit, here they are in true harmonious synastry.

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Love for a Lifetime: Patrick Swayze and Lisa Niemi Synastry Part One

I haven't done much on love and astrology and I have a quite a few planets in the Librian house and in Pisces. Today I thought I would do a really nice post on the long standing marriage of Patrick Swayze and Lisa Niemi. As we all know Patrick lost his battle against Cancer this year, and he is deeply missed by us all. I have grown up watching Dirty Dancing and it is such a timeless and great film. Patrick and Lisa have been together for most of their lives and this is a rarity in Hollywood. Lets take a look at their synastry contacts and see what magic superglue contacts are present in their charts which indicate such a long committed partnership.


Swayze was married to Lisa Niemi from June 12, 1975 until his death. The couple first met in 1970 when Swayze was 18 years old. Niemi, 14 years old at the time, was taking dance lessons from Swayze's mother. Swayze and Niemi had no children.

Soon after their marriage, the couple moved to New York to pursue their dance careers until the late 1970s, whereupon they headed West. In addition to dancing and filmmaking, the couple ran a construction business and raised horses together.

She has lived on a five acre homestead near the Angeles National Forest since 1985, along with a "menagerie of dogs, prized Arabian horses and rodeo cattle." She also has a 20,000 acre ranch in New Mexico. In a 2008 interview, Swayze stated that Niemi was the inspiration for his 1987 hit song, "She's Like the Wind". Niemi is a licensed pilot and flew her husband to his cancer treatments before his death.



The Synastry contacts between Patrick and Lisa

Patrick's Sun conjuncts Lisa's Jupiter in Leo, and this is such a positive contact for any couple this aspect enhances and expands the experience of the couple. Her Jupiterian faith, creativity and generosity ties in nicely with the man that Patrick is at heart. She inspires him and he feels centred. They both enjoy creative projects together. His masculinity and his need to shine and feel special is enhanced by her faith in him as an individual. They both feel they have a positive future together filled with endless possibilities. Creativity is meaningful to them both and they enjoy the journey of self-discovery and adventure that awaits them. Jupiter rules horses,  and this connection helped with the running of their ranch. She seeks freedom in expression and he identifies with this vital need and supports this aspect of her personality. They can pursue great wealth or higher knowledge together. They are a popular couple and they are generous and helpful towards one another.

Sitting in our beautiful ranch home in New Mexico with the sun beaming down on the mountains, I realize yet again how much more I want to do in this life. Together with Lisa, I'll keep on pushing, keep on believing. Because that, in the end, is the greatest gift we have.

Patrick's Sun in Leo is square Lisa's Saturn in Scorpio, these two have a few difficult aspects to Saturn, and this planet is often thought of as a malefic planet in relationships. However, it turns up frequently in long term relationships. Saturn is always willing to work hard at a relationship, the planet is exalted in Libra the sign of partnership. In this relationship Lisa is the controlling and "sober" partner she brings the reality checks home to her man. Lisa sees Patrick as the outgoing confident one, and she sometimes falls in his shadow. Lisa is the one to apply the discipline and conservatisim to the relationship. Overall, Lisa is the one who teaches him about responsibility and playing by the rules. She represents authority, tradition and boundaries. He teaches her about fun and creativity and allowing yourself to let go and be creative. Lisa fears betrayal and humiliation (Saturn in Scorpio) so the relationship needs to be a fixed and committed one (Leo and Scorpio are both fixed signs). Both partners need loyalty. However, she may try to repress her possessivness and jealousy but deep down she longs for emotional dominance. Both partners want to achieve a great deal in this partnership but its not without it's fairshare of struggle and hardship. Together they can build a solid foundation that contains both loyalty (Sun) and respect (Saturn).

Patrick's Sun conjuncts Lisa's Pluto and this describes a very dark passionate and intense relationship. Lisa brings depth and immense feeling, and he shines the light on her intensity and obsession. When she is around Patrick it brings out her dark unconscious feminine power. This contact is very signifcant because they have both gone through a highly Plutonian relationship, he has battled for his life, and she has had to dig deep into her own powerful resources (Pluto). Natally Patrick has Sun conjunct Pluto and Lisa has Mars opposite Pluto these two are both survivors and have faced life changing experiences. The couple are on an evolutionary journey of growth and transformation.

Patrick's and Lisa's time together will have have been emotionally exhausting at times and they will have had their fair share of drama together - on and off camera! Through crisis these two learn more about eachother in one lifetime than most people will ever experience. This can be an emotional and sexually committed relationship. When Pluto is involved there is often a fated and destined feel to their meeting. Patrick's addictive personality (Sun-Pluto natally) did harm the relationship and she left him until he could sort out his drinking problems. She described him as being a danger to himself. In some ways Lisa has probably felt she has been psycho-analyzing him (Pluto) and perhaps she been a little bit of therapist for him, but he has forced her into these deeper emotions of hers, and she usually finds it tough to handle emotional expression. Lisa tries to repress and deny this side of herself (Saturn in Scorpio). However, this same contact means that she is reliable and dependable through crisis. This relationship can have it's emotional storms but it can also be a powerful and healing relationship.

"A relationship survives because of keeping the friendship alive and learning how to fall in love over and over again and never taking the other person for granted and seeing things in a new light with new eyes. We're big believers in, arguments are okay as long as it's not about your ego, but it's about a mutual goal-trying to create something special."

Patrick Swayze on his battle with Cancer:

"Fighting cancer has been the most challenging and eye-opening experience I've ever had, and it has sent me on an emotional journey deeper than anything I've felt before. Facing your own mortality is the quickest way possible to find out what you're made of. It strips away all the bullshit and exposes every part of you -- your strengths and weaknesses, your sense of self. Your soul".



Patricks's Moon in Leo is conjunct her Uranus and this symbolises an unpredictable element to their relationship. This aspect can bring excitement. Lisa is probably the more willful of the partnership. Considering both Uranus and Pluto touch on Patricks's personal planets. Uranus is an intellectual planet and Patrick has said that Lisa was the smartest chick he has ever met. He said he was mysteriously intrigued by Lisa but she acted as cool as ever! This could also be down to Lisa's natal Mars in Aquarius she is inventive, clever and original and she can fly planes too! Her Mars squares off with his emotionally intense Mars in Scorpio. Uranus in astrology rules detachment, freedom and coolness.

Part two to follow soon...
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Unusual Accidents/Deaths: Suicide During Live Broadcast

I thought I would add more unusual deaths to my blog. I do find them fascinating in a strange sort of way. You can catch up on the previous post here. I was discussing how our own nature is out to get us, and that tradegies often do occur according to our own natal disposition. I do mean this in the broadest sense, but I do think it is strange that the one man who dies of electrocution has Sun in Aquarius at the 11th degree (Aquarius is the 11th sign) and square to Uranus! The sign needs to make waves in the collective and will often attempt to shock us into awarness, this is more so under hard aspects. The lady who burnt up in flames has a violent configuration between Mars-Saturn-Pluto. Lets see what new astrological revelations the next batch of unusual deaths will reveal. My favourite part of astrology is when I read a biography or a peice of interesting information about someone, and I love to unveil the chart and see what it will reveal, sometimes I will guess what type of aspects I expect to see. It's a surprise every time and I never tire of it. So lets move on with more interesting cases. In the first part I only focused on accidents but this time I have included other types of death.


Christine Chubbuck: Death by Suicide During a Live Broadcast


On July 15, 1974, eight minutes into the broadcast, the depressed reporter said "In keeping with Channel 40’s policy of bringing you the latest in blood and guts, and in living color, you are going to see another first: an attempted suicide." With that, Chubbuck drew up a revolver and shot herself in the head.

Chubbuck spoke to her family at length about her struggles with depression and suicidal tendencies, though she did not inform them of her specific intent beforehand. She had attempted to overdose on medication in 1970 and frequently made reference to the event. She had also been seeing a psychiatrist up until several weeks before her death. Chubbuck's mother chose not to tell station management of her daughter's suicidal tendencies because she feared she would be fired as a result. Her focus on her lack of relationships was generally considered to be the driving force for her depression; her mother later summarized "her suicide was simply because her personal life was not enough." She lamented to co-workers her 30th birthday was approaching and she was still a virgin who had never been on more than two dates with a man. Her brother Greg later recalled several times she had gone out with a man, before moving to Sarasota, but agreed she had trouble connecting socially in the beach resort town. He believed her constant self-deprecation for being "dateless" contributed to her ongoing depression.

She had her right ovary removed in an operation the year before, and had been told if she did not become pregnant within a year, it was unlikely she would ever be able to conceive. Apparently, she had an unrequited crush on co-worker George Peter Ryan. She baked him a cake for his birthday and sought his romantic attention, only to find out he was already involved with sports reporter Andrea Kirby. Kirby had been the co-worker closest to Chubbuck, but she was offered a new job in Baltimore, which had further depressed Chubbuck.

Chubbuck's lack of a romantic partner was considered a tangent of her desperate need to have close friends, though co-workers said she tended to be brusque and defensive whenever they made friendly gestures toward her. She was self-deprecating, criticizing herself constantly and rejecting any compliments she was given. Three weeks before her suicide she had asked the station's news director if she could do a news piece on suicide. After her suggestion was approved, she visited the local sheriff's department to discuss with an officer methods of suicide. In the interview, an officer told her one of the most efficient ways was to use a .38 caliber revolver with wadcutter target bullets, and to shoot oneself in the back of the head rather than in the temple.

A week before her suicide she told Rob Smith, the night news editor, she had bought a gun and joked about killing herself on air. Smith later told the Washington Post he had chided her for the comment. On July 12, 1974, she had an argument with news director Mike Simmons after he cut one of her stories to cover a shoot-out instead. Robert Nelson, the station owner, had tried to convince staff to concentrate on "blood and guts."

Presbyterian minister Thomas Beason delivered the eulogy, stating "We suffer at our sense of loss, we are frightened by her rage, we are guilty in the face of her rejection, we are hurt by her choice of isolation and we are confused by her message."

The Astrology

Christine has a dominance of planets in Virgo - Sun, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter and Chiron. Virgo likes to utilize time in the most efficient way, and their efforts are directed at ordering the world. It is difficult for this sign to get out of their immediate view of life with it's rituals and routine and see a broader future. Virgo also has an intense need for privacy and they withdaw when they find human beings intolerable. I think this was the breaking point that Christine had reached. She seemed far too critically focused on her lack of relationships. She was the "stereotypical" Virgo in the sense that she was approaching her 30th birthday and was still a Virgin. She constantly criticized and berated herself which is another Virgo tendency, and she found it difficult accepting compliments. Venus is in a tight conjunction with Chiron in Virgo, and can show wounds to her sense of self-worth and lovability. Mars the planet of aggression and rage is conjunct Neptune and she opted to act out her anger indirectly by suicide (Neptune).

At the time of her suicide she was still under her Saturn return in Cancer, and this marks the point of real adulthood, but Cancer fears lonliness and abandonment and these issues are brought into powerful awareness. Saturn in Cancer has extreme sensitivity to rejection, and she may have felt that time was ticking away without a family, during Saturn transits we really do begin to feel our age. Transiting Pluto was conjunct Neptune - this is a generational transit but it occurs frequently at the time of suicides. Transiting Jupiter was opposite her natal Venus-Chiron conjunction in Virgo making her more aware of love relationships, and at this time she can feel widly enthusiastic about someone but feelings and affection are not always consistant under this transit. Christine also had transiting Neptune in Sagittarius square Jupiter in Virgo, and she was definitly on a suicide mission. The aspect can show a belief in a worthy cause and the need to "do good".  She wanted to cover a story on suicide but it was cut, and she went ahead with the story anyway in a martyr like fashion (Neptune). Here is a reading on the natal aspect by Liz Greene which offers great insight into this transiting configuration.

Both planets resent the limits of mundane reality, although for different reasons, and both disregard these limits in their pursuit of the sublime. Jupiter may cajole Neptune into folly, particularly of a financial kind, through presenting glorious future plans which are not unobtainable, but may fly in the face of obvious material or legal boundaries. Neptune playing the mirror for Jupiter's grandiose schemes, may feel Jupiter's natural propensity for inflation.

The emotional excesses of the hysteric may owe much to Jupiter-Neptune, for it can be intensely Dionyisian in its love of self-abandonment and theatrical display. The aspect may contribute  to the capacity for self-delusion and self-aggrandisement. Generating heartbreaking losses, dissappointments and tragic acts of self-undoing.

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Sharpe Family Murder

The Sharpe family murders was a March 2004 Australian double murder, in which John Sharpe killed his pregnant wife, Anna, and his nineteen-month old daughter Gracie, in the Melbourne suburb of Mornington.For his part in the crime, he became generally known as the 'Speargun killer' or the 'Mornington Monster'.

Sharpe repeatedly fired a spear gun into the heads of his victims, and would later exhume the body of his wife, dismember her, then disposed of her body in a landfill. Claiming his innocence, he would later appear on national television in emotional interviews seeking information on his family's whereabouts. Sharpe eventually confessed to the murders and was sentenced in 2005 to life imprisonment., with a minimum non-parole period of 33 years. He will be eligible for parole in 2037.

John Myles Sharpe was born 28 February 1967 in Mornington and grew up in that area. Sharpe met his New Zealand born wife, Anna Kemp, when they worked together at the Commonwealth Bank of Australia. They married in October 1994 - Anna was four years his senior. They then lived together in various locations around the Mornington Peninsula area south of Melbourne.

Their daughter, Gracie Louise Sharpe was born in August 2002. She was born with a condition called hip dysplacia - a congenital abnormality in her hips which required orthopaedic treatment by a corrective harness for the first three months of her life. She cried often and had difficulty sleeping, a situation which appeared to place some strain on the marriage. Even after the harness was no longer required, Gracie still had difficulties in feeding and sleeping for which Anna sought professional assistance.

In 2003 Sharpe purchased a high powered spear gun, along with a second spear, from a sports shop known as Sport Phillip Marine in Mornington. He had not previously shown an interest in spear fishing, but was known to have test fired the gun, in order to become familiar with its operation, in the backyard of their then Spinnaker Rise, Mornington home. Soon after, in September 2003, the Sharpes purchased the house at 116 Prince Street, Mornington.

In about November of that year, when Gracie was about 15 months old, Anna became pregnant again. Sharpe later told police investigators that this pregnancy came as a surprise to him. Sharpe apparently decided that he did not want another child - in his mind, one was enough of a burden - and he began to resent Anna and the unborn child. Wikipedia

John Sharpe's Astrology Chart


The chart has no known birth time, but there are some significant insights that can still be revealed about this man's character from his chart. First, as you may have noticed he has quite a few astrological bodies in water. The sign of Pisces is particularly heavily tenated with Sun, Mercury, Saturn and Chiron all placed in the twelfth sign. As most people have read the element of water represents the sensitive and compassionate souls, and these types often need to have relationships with other people. Some water people live their lives through others.

Pisces is a changeble and malleable sign, easily influenced by the environment and can become more easily distorted and emotionally disturbed by life. Pisces is also the sign of self-sacrifice and compassion. Now, just because you have the Sun in Pisces does not mean all these qualities are innate and full blown. The Sun in the natal chart rules what you are becoming, it is the solar essence of an individual. The Sun represents the constant unfolding of the individual identity. Put simply, the Sun shows the direction and purpose of an individual life. Pisces is the sign of sacrifice, sensitivity, and a connection to the feeling life of the collective. The sign of Pisces represents two fish swimming in opposite directions and this symbolizes the psychological pull in opposite directions and the difficulty inherent in this sign.

The Sun in Pisces needs to involve himself in work which provides an emotional connection to others and contributes to the imaginal realm of other human beings. Sometimes it involves selfless service or artistic endeavours. However, John Sharpe couldn't cope with the challenge of reality, and he resented the responsibilities that he had been 'burdened' with. After he had murdered his wife and child he went on national television and decieved the public with emotional pleas. No doubt, the Piscean emphasis in his chart aided him in this sorrowful broadcast, which you can view here I wouldn't say he gave an oscar winning performance.

Pisces is known as the natural actor of the zodiac, and this sign can self-decieve, be deceived or lie to others. The Sun is conjunct Mercury in Pisces. Mercury is in the sign of it's fall and rules communication on the imaginative and intuitive level. Sometimes this type of conjunction can mean that the individual has difficulty seperating from their own opinions, but it is also symbolic of a weak sense of direction and great mental sensitivity and it can lead to a distortion of facts. The Sun in Pisces trine Mars in Scorpio shows a side to him that was more confident in his masculinity, and an adventurous side (dangerous weapons too).

The Sun in Pisces in traditional terms tends to dissolve the individuality and they can sacrifice themselves in the name of others. Mars in Scorpio, is entirely different; it is strong in it's own sign. Mars in Scorpio will tend to act in secret, and they can become fixed on their course of action. Loyalty matters to this sign and betrayals are not easily forgiven. This side of his nature is willing to overcome any obstacles but it can be at the expense of others. Sharpe told police he killed his wife because she was controlling and moody although he is the one who has the "water chart" in all respects. He claimed the marriage was unahppy. He said that killing his daughter was an act of "irrational bloody madness" and that he was thinking of taking care of his daughter by himself and then he just lost the plot. Other theories say that Sharpe had a history of abusing children and he killed his wife after she had discovered him abusing their daughter.

The Sun in Pisces trines Jupiter in Cancer and this would usually present an optimistic character. This aspect can be a positive dimension to his character, however, it can also make him too complacement in the face of life's difficulties. Two naturally confident planets trine his ego/identity and thus self-confidence comes with ease, of course there is always the danger of self-inflation and delusion. Jupiter in Cancer signifies the principle of protection and is usally a good placement for a homemaker! The square to Mars in Scorpio describes careless actions regarding his desire nature and the protective influence of the family. John Sharpe has plenty of water trines in his chart, he has a closed and flowing Grand Water Trine between Mercury, Jupiter, Saturn, Chiron and Neptune. All grand trines have an internal flow and there can be many postive benefits to this chart formation. However, it can also make the individual emotionally enclosed.

Dr Walton said Sharpe had a long-term inability to confront problems but, despite having difficulty in expressing "any sort of feeling", he now expressed sorrow for the family of the victims.

Jupiter and Neptune in his chart are the dispositors of his Piscean group of planets, and are pretty much well aspected. Naturally, he played on other people's sympathy but this paticular combination and with Jupiter trine Neptune can show inflation and grand delusions. I think he probably thought he was some sort of savior. Traditionally this aspect would show a kind and sympathetic character who can be inclined to religious or spiritual enthusiasm.

The chart has a kite formation which in general is usually more productive than the grand trine. Mercury in fall in Pisces trining Jupiter and Neptune probably aided him in his lying and deception, he may have even started believing his own hype and lies (jupiter-Neptune) he is so enclosed in himself he probably couldn't tell you the real truth. Jupiter is the planet of optimism and exaggeration and he would expect things to turn in his favour. Considering his "grand trine chart" it was reported that he didn't handle stress too well. Grand trines especially involving water and Neptune can avoid the struggle of real life and can emotionally retreat. Mercury in Pisces trine Nepune shows a powerful imagination and he can be impressionable and gullible, or likewise 'easily' decieve others. There is great mental sensitivity here and he is easily in touch with what we would call the irrational world.

Mercury in Pisces is probably under the most stress in the chart, it opposes the outer planetary conjunction of Uranus-Pluto. Mercury also conjuncts Chiron in Pisces, and this planetray picture tells us of a man who thinks differently, he doesn't like to be told what to think. He also needs great mental stimulation or he beomes bored easily, he may suffer from nervousness (Uranus). He may also be lacking in common sense. These aspects can make him quite touchy for his mind is deeply sensitized. He can be stubborn and opinionated and during his own childhood he may have felt manipulated or dominated in his thinking. According to reports he has always been sly and manipulative and has probably more secrets that we don't know about (Pluto). The combination of Mercury- Uranus-Pluto can also describe his mentality as detached and seperate, this can be a creatve, visionary and powerful combination, but it can also unsettle the mind leading to fierce detachment.

Chiron is in Pisces in his natal chart and shows emotional wounds and dissapointments which are often experienced through emotional expectations. He can suffer deep feelings of helplessness and victimisation. The family background and current situation can contain apparently 'pointless' sacrifices. It is hard to retain faith in life for this position of Chiron. Here is a reading by Martin Lass: Source for following reading and interpretation in full to be found here.

The Wound:

The Wound of a loss of Faith and Trust in the Divine and/or in the Universe. A deep-seated sense of betrayal and/or victimization by life and/or God/Universe. A loss of Faith in the power and omnipresence of Love. Fear of being hurt. A core belief in the injustice, inequity, unfairness and victimizing nature of the Universe. A feeling of being forsaken by God, mirrored in the story of Jesus Christ.

The Wound's Expression:

Shutting our inner doors to the Universe, to the Divine, to God.Suffering silently within ourselves, i.e. private hurt.Yet, paradoxically, seeking to merge, to Return to Oneness, to become whole again. Developing a hard shell and a pragmatic and sometimes cynical exterior manner.This is the most common expression.Conversely, can be overly sensitive, gushing and teary.Can be susceptible or gullible to outer influences that appear to offer Love or union with something divine or mystical.

Fear of opening up to others, yet needing close personal contact.This can lead to clouded judgment when choosing partners. Yet, paradoxically, each partner will offer another reflection of what we need to see about ourselves.Often suspiciousness, fear of opening to others, fear of being hurt and lack of trust will sabotage relationships. Nonetheless, highly sensitive inside - even overly so.Can feel like a victim of the injustices, inequities and suffering of the world. Can manifest as agnosticism or even atheism. Expresses very often through artistic and creative output.

As you have seen in the above report he was born around the same time as Kurt Cobain who used his Piscean creativity through music, but who suffered the same feelings of victimisation. He ended his own life by shooting himself in the head. Sharpe also has Uranus opposite his Chiron in Pisces.

Chiron opposite Uranus below:

This aspect is perhaps the most active of the Chiron/Uranus aspects barring the conjunction.The opposition causes us to run in the opposite direction to our Woundedness.In doing so, we run into Uranus, who then proceeds to show us the higher view of that from which we were running.When Uranus' Truth and its bigger Picture become too difficult to handle, challenging us beyond our current capacity, we run again, back into our Woundedness, back to Chiron.Here, due to Uranus' light shining on the Wounds, we find new material to work with, adding to our overall understanding.When what we find there again becomes too Painful, again we run, again bumping into Uranus.So it goes on, in a tic-tocking journey of Healing and evolution of consciousness.

If we are not able to deal with the Wounds and Pain that come up and we are not able to deal with the greater Truth that Uranus offers, then we are stuck in a kind of nightmare of constant running.In this case we tend to try to do anything to 'blank out'.We attempt this by using alcohol, drugs, sleep, work, music and all other types of 'escapism' to avoid the Wounds, blockages and unresolved issues.If we try this for too long, however, it will inevitably be reflected in our bodies through illness, disease and general unwellness. This all-or-nothing kind of psychology is the very reason why Chiron-opposition-Uranus (and Chiron-opposition-Pluto) is an aspect that confers Healing ability and/or focus in our lives.We cannot avoid it; we cannot run away from it; it follows us wherever we try to go.

Mercury conjunct Chiron can show wounds in his ability to communicate effectively about his feelings of victimisation and emotional wounds. It shows deep blockages in the communication area of the natal chart. Chiron conjunct Saturn in Pisces shows defensive wounding and his defence to life's difficulty can be to play the "poor victim in society". Mars square Jupiter can symbolise that he lacks moderation and balance in his over-zealous and vengeful actions (Mars in Scorpio).

The most telling evidence in his chart for the unhappy marriage is his Venus conjunct Saturn this can symbolise someone who is quite shy and repressed when it comes to showing affection and love, he will often find himself in relationships where he/she is incapable of responding in an affectionate or loving manner. This is the classic love vs duty aspect and often shows career or other marital burdens limiting the expression of a love relationship. Deep down he feels unlovable and it can show an over-developed duty to the partner. Or it can infer that the partner is dutiful, hardworking, but perhaps cold in feeling. The wife may have felt depressed and limited in the marriage. Marriage and relationships will always carry a deep sense of duty and burden. Most people are able to respond to this by working hard and building a committed relationship together with shared responsibility and working as a "team".

Sometimes the individual feels a deep sense of guilt in realtionships and failing at a realtionship fills him with a deep sense of inadequecy regarding his own self-worth and lovability. In some cases it can represent a selfish person and considering Venus is in Aries (detriment) his own desires in relationships and his essential passionate desires are thwarted. He believes that love will give him what he wants and his desires come first. However, it is difficult to feel pleasure when he is powerfully aware of his committments and responsibilities. The marriage overall may have lacked sexual and physical affection, and if the abuse rumours are true he sought these needs elsewhere. I have mostly focused on the negative possibilities of all the aspects because we know he has acted out his chart in this way. The positive aspect to Venus-Saturn is being self-sufficient in relationships and the need to develop an optimistic attitude in marriage. Venus-Saturn can show the painful loss of a relationship through rejection, death, or general unhappiness in the marriage. It takes time to learn how to build a loving realtionship.

Overall this is the 'genaral nature' of his personality. I have focused on the negative aspects because there is no point beating about the bush when we know he is a disturbed killer. I will now peruse his transits for the time of the murders. We might gain insight about what type of planetary action triggerd him off. The first important aspect to consider is transiting Saturn in Cancer the sign of family obligation and responsibility square to his natal Venus in Aries. This transit is telling us he was most likely feeling heavily burdened in his relationship, and this amplifies his natal Venus-Saturn aspect.Venus-Saturn can indicate more responsibility and a realistic assessment of a relationship or it can represent seperation. Transitng Uranus in Pisces conjuncts his Sun indicating he was feeling restless and ready for change. I had the exact same transit at that time because I too have Sun in Pisces at 8 degrees. I met my current partner suddenly and had fallen pregnant unexpectedly. For me, it was a pleasant surprise. For him, however, another baby meant more added responsibility and an extra burden (Venus-Saturn). He resented the news. Transiting Pluto in Sagittarius squared his natal Uranus-Pluto conjunction indicating a time of forced change and sudden upheaval. Transiting Pluto square Chiron in Pisces can show painful awareness of his wounds and limiatations. Here is a reading below:

You have very deep emotional experiences that force you to face your issues about power, intimacy and loss. You have some very difficult choices to make regarding the use of your power. You may be strongly inclined to challenge all sexual taboos and rules, and to embrace your shadow side. Self-healing depends upon squarely facing your obsessions, attachments and buried rage, otherwise you may be strongly inclined to hoard and misuse your power, acting out your unresolved feelings in potentially destructive ways. If you do your deep psychological work you can become a powerful force for healing and awakening, creating a dimensional bridge that can be used by others as well as yourself. You can be very charismatic and compelling in your role as mentor, guide and healer. Source
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Saturn in Aries/1st House

Saturn is in fall in Aries and thus accidentally falls in the 1st house of the natal chart. With this position of Saturn there is an intense feeling of frustration and personal goals are often thwarted (can be self-sabotaging). A lack of self confidence may be evident, or you may appear confident on the surface but go to great pains to hide your anxiety. Early hardship is frequently felt and you may have suffered bullying taunts over your appearance and this has made you feel ugly. Saturn rules authority and he likes to be top dog, therefore you may experience intense resentment if you are placed in a subordinate role in your personal or professional life. A tendency to take life too seriously may also be apparent here, and you may present an controlled outer image. Since childhood you have bulit strong defences around your self-image, and there is often a stiffness or awkwardness in the way you present yourself. At times you can be rather too too self-contained and lack real spontanaity. Painful issues around expressing your identity will often arise throughout life. Perhaps in early life your own individuality was denied expression and you were not allowed to express selfishness or develop your own self-will and confidence.

Too many knocks in early life can have long term consequences, but you are developing and building an unshakeable confidence from ground up. Psychologically, you have too much over identification with the image you present it can create anxiety in how you are perceived and judged. You tend to create anxiety around yourself, and this brings up those defences and in consequence affects how others view you. A viscious cycle is created. An over controlling nature may be developed out of fear and to prevent people from getting too close. You may have a highly defensive personality that seeks to rigidly protect yourself against judgements. Another possibility is that you are extremely shy and you fel terrified and anxious when meeting new people, and you may throw up defences to protect how vulnerable, exposed and anxious you feel underneath. Alternatively you may appear very confident and successfully mask your vulnerability. Often you appear standoffish and unfriendly giving off a cold front even though you may be shaking inside, and long to be liked. another problem is that you may also put a lid on those natural instincts of yours and be afraid to grasp first place or aim for that top position. Being so highly defensive you often jump to attack at the slightest provocation. However, genuine bullying and taunts in early life may have forced you to cultivate such strong walls, and so you have created a barrier for self-protection against a hostile environment. There may be deep issues around self-loathing and you may feel unattractive to others. Some of you with this placement of Saturn have severe problems with body image and you can become consumed in your image as you work hard on presenting the right socially accepted image you can be extremely self-conscious.

Lessons to Learn

*How to be naturally self-confident
*Develop a strong will
*Assert your true identity
*Learn how to relax and project who you really are without anxiety or too much stiffness and seriousness
*Learn to lighten up now and again
*Master the environment
*Don’t hide away
*Saturn won’t allow any false image or pretence at being confident. You have to really work for it
*Self-belief must to be developed
*Have the confidence to make things happen, sometimes you are too frightened to take risks
*Go out there and challenge your limits
*Unless you get past the fear of expressing true strength, will and confidence you will always be a slave to the environment and other people’s opinion.
*If you are the over controlling type, relax and allow others their freedom of expression, just because you feel inferior it doesn’t make it right if they use that powerful will to control everybody else, it is all about the right use of the will and assertion

      Saturn in 1st house examples:


      Emile Zola (Saturn in Sagittarius in the 1st house)

      *He was an influential writer
      *His father died early
      *Published his first major novel and was married at his Saturn Return
      *Risked his career and life when he published an open letter to the president accusing him of an obstruction of justice
      *He was marked as the new power of intellectuals shaping public opinion the media and the state
      *He has been noted for his great courage as a writer for risking his career and life in service of the truth

        Quotes:

        ..but I affirm, with intense conviction, the Truth is on the march and nothing will stop it." — Émile Zola

        The action I am taking is no more than a radical measure to hasten the explosion of truth and justice. I have but one passion: to enlighten those who have been kept in the dark, in the name of humanity which has suffered so much and is entitled to happiness. My fiery protest is simply the cry of my very soul. Let them dare, then, to bring me before a court of law and let the enquiry take place in broad daylight!"—Émile Zola, "J'accuse!"

        Susannah York (Saturn in Aries in the 1st house)

        She is an English film and stage actress, and she was nominated at her Saturn return for best supporting actress for They shoot Horses Don’t They she famously snubbed the academy and declared it offended her not be asked first (control freak…joking). Here is a clip below of the overly serious actress, but as you will see from the video she hates to be seen that way.



        Peter Yarrow (Saturn in Aries in the 1st house)

        Peter is an American singer; he was involved in many political activities against war and created 'operation respect' to combat school violence. Its mission is to ensure each child has a safe environment free of bullying, ridicule and violence. However, it seems Saturn in the 1st house has a right to be defensive, for he too feared attacks afyer a steady stream of death threats. As a Saturn risng I am putting on my armour as we speak, although I have never took mine off. During his Saturn return he married and made a serious committment.
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        Deliberating

        I was evaluating my blog and deciding what direction it needs to be heading in. Saturn has just left Virgo and entered into Libra, and I start assessing my blog to see what can be improved. It seems planetary energy catches up late with me. To tell you the truth I have been evaluating the blog for quite some time. Perhaps Saturn's move into Libra is causing me to strictly adhere to appropiate blogging codes of behavior to prevent social ostracism ;-p. The desire to please others is more powerful now. I am looking at my blog from the other side of the fence. However, if you look at the defence mechanisms used with Saturn in Libra it is reluctant to express personal taste and opinions. There is more of a desire to please, and now is the time to build bridges with Saturn's transition through Libra and co-operation is the key to success now. If you have Saturn in Libra natally this is an important time for you, because you will also have your Saturn return, it's time to get serious and make a real committment now, the house position of Saturn will tell you where new responsibility and tests will take place. Some of you may feel burderned in your current realtionships and others will fear being alone. You may ask yourself  what the whole contract of marriage really means? There is more than just relationships with Libra, and this sign is all about fair play and receiving a fair hearing. We will all have to consider now more heaviliy the realities of differing points of view. After all my evaluating period in Virgo, perhaps now is the time to take action and make a decision (scary), but what if I make the wrong one? What if don't consider all the viewpoints? And how can I please everyone? This is Saturn in Libra's voice speaking, it's time to make carefully considered decisons. Perhaps we may also take too long in the deliberating process and test others patience.
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        Blurry Picture of Myself

        Here is my photo. Not the astronaut ;-p look below. I had the full version of this photo but deleted it off the computer. I no longer have a scanner and can't post a clearer photo. This is the last remaining photo of me on the internet. I was joking with a friend and we were manipulating pictures. I put myself in space with my big head on Jupiter. My friend kindly turned me into a monkey and put me in a psycho ward. His photo's are much better than mine. My photo manipulation efforts are poor. It was good fun to do, but my planet photo is embarrassing, here it is anyway. I added a cat frame too. You can click to enlarge my planet photo, not that you want to ;-p


        As you can see I write my blog from outer space and transmit my posts down to planet earth.

         
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        Chiron in Aries



        Key Themes - Unlocking IDENTITY wounds, a search for THE SELF

        The Wound

        • Disappointments in the individual's efforts to assert identity.
        • Taking the initiative may be difficult and often thwarted
        • Resistance from others towards attempts to be self-expressive
        • A wounded sense of identity or leadership
        • May be cynical or deeply bitter towards those in power
        • Painful and wounded experiences connected with potency
        • Family background may show frustration in achievement of personal goals
        • A failure to stand up for oneself 
        • Wounded in competition
        • The pain of losing
        • There may be injury or scars on the head/face
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          Healing 
           
        • Healing begins when you express your idenitity
        • Mentoring others in sport or confidence building
        • Exploration, adventure and taking risks hold the key towards healing the pain of low self-worth
        • Seek something that challenges your limits
        • Be a Pioneer in your field
        • Educational skills in leadership can be developed
        • Be brave and take on new challenges
        • The courage to express your vision and originality
        • Take risks that challenge your confidence. 
        • Wisdom will come when you act utilizing your knowldege, understanding, and insight and this will take you forward. Ask yourself if you shoot yourself in the hip? Lack of wisdom shows in repeating patterns of behavior.
        • Accept what you can't change
        • Face life with courage

        Examples of Chiron in Aries/1st house

        Ron Ziegler - Chiron in Cancer in the first house. Here the Chirotic wound shows through strong identification with a leader. He faced criticism for his lack of independent journalistic expereince - read more below.

        Strong Personal Identification with President Nixon

        In 1969, when he was just 29, Ziegler became the youngest White House Press Secretary in history. Historically, a number of White House Press Secretaries — some of them already distinguished figures in their own right — were recruited from the ranks of individuals with substantial journalistic experience; among these were Stephen Early and Pierre Salinger. Ronald Ziegler's appointment thus contrasted somewhat with those of a number of other figures who filled the post, given his strong dependence on the President's personal patronage, which masked his lack of independent journalistic experience.

        Elaina Zayak - Injury challenges career in sports. Chiron in Pisces conjunct Asc.

        Sport Challenges

        At age two, Zayak lost part of her left foot in a lawn mower accident. On the advice of her doctors, she began figure skating as physical therapy, but her injury was not generally known to the skating world during her amateur career. Her left boot is stabilized with a wood mold to compensate for the irregularity in the shape of her left foot.

        American professional ice skater known for multiple jumps who earned the National Skating Title in 1981, followed by the World Championship in 1982. She did poorly at the Winter Olympics with injuries and weight problems but fought her way back to the top, regaining the World Cup in 1984.

        Merril Womach- Chiron in Aries in first house. Merril Suffered facial scars from a terrible accident and is left with third degree burns.

        Tested by Fire

        A salesman’s son, Womach graduated from Northwest Ministerial College near Seattle before becoming assistant pastor and director of music and Christian education at the Fourth Presbyterian Church in Spokane. In 1958, he started his own business, National Music Service, by recording spiritual songs and building two music systems that he leased to funeral parlors. The business expanded beyond his hometown, and he piloted his own Piper Cub plane to other locations for concert dates.

        On Thanksgiving Day, 1961, his plane crashed. He miraculously survived, but was horribly burned and disfigured. His recovery included 52 operations over 19 years, and was a test of faith, documented by his wife in her book, "Tested by Fire."

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        Monster House: Chiron's Wound

        The Monster House symbolizes Chirotic wounding. I know this idea probably sounds crazy, but I think it does link in powerfully with Chiron's journey. At first we see JD spying on a house, a man called Nebbercracker lives there and terrifies the local children if they come near his property. The story at first appears to be about a crazy man who shouts at the neighbourhood kids. JD crosses paths with Nebbercracker after going up his garden path for a basketball. Nebbercraker begins screaming at JD and suffers from a stroke, but he appears to be dead. When Nebbercracker is taken away by the parmedics he drops a Skeleton Key to the floor. Now it may appear I have become obsessed with skeleton keys and Chiron and you would be right, but the moment the skeleton key falls to the ground in the movie, it is asking us to explore the wounded house. It is by opening this gateway that DJ and his friends unlock years of torment and rage that is hidden behind those doors.

        Near the end of the movie Mr. Nebbercracker reveals his story to JD. He met Constance, an obese women who was an unwilling member of a circus freak show, and fell in love with her at first sight. After helping her escape from the circus, Mr. Nebbercracker moved them away and started building the house, that Constance always wanted. However, children still taunted and threw things at Constance for her size. On one particular Halloween day, as children cruelly attacked her with eggs and tomatoes, Constance went after them, yet lost her footing, retaliating and as she fell from the edge of the house's foundation, she grabbed the lever of a cement mixer, which covered her in cement as quickly as she fell to her death. Mr. Nebbercracker ended up finishing the house despite Constance's death, yet found that her spirit had not left; the house possessed Constance's spirit. Mr. Nebbercracker has since gone to every possible measure to keep the people away from his house and Constance's wrath, resulting in his child-hating reputation. However, Mr. Nebbercracker felt that it was now time to destroy the house. The house overhears this, and is angered. It breaks free from its foundation (growing 4 tree parts as legs) to attack the group.

        As the kids and Mr. Nebbercracker run away, they run into the construction lot. A chase ensues, during which Mr. Nebbercracker attempts to throw a stick of dynamite into the house, but fails. Jenny kisses DJ good luck; getting courage, DJ takes the dynamite and climbs to the top of a tower crane. He swings with the crane cable and throws the dynamite down the chimney, where it reaches the furnace and destroys the house completely. The kids see Mr. Nebbercracker dancing with the spirit of Constance as he lets go of her, and she fades away. DJ apologizes to Mr. Nebbercracker, and Mr. Nebbercracker thanks DJ for freeing him and Constance after 45 years of being "trapped".



        Here are some Chirotic Themes


        • Chiron describes our primal wound.
        • Chiron archetypally portrays the wounded/healer
        • Chiron embodies the key to conciousness, and symbolizes the gateway to healing
        • Chiron represents where we feel trapped in spirit
        • Chiron can represent feelings of deep rage over our predicament
        • Chiron is released from pain when he lets go and transforms


        I will at some point this week type up some basic Chiron readings. I am still finding my way around this asteroid.
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        ONE MAN'S TRASH IS ANOTHER MAN'S TREASURE

        Bolts of Light

        I learned something about the power of transformation this weekend. Don't get too excited if you think this post is going to be full of deep spiritual insights on transformation, because I don't have any of those. I have never really understood what spiritual transformation is all about. What happens when you spiritually transform? Do bolts of light shoot through your body?  I will be honest I am not heavily Scorpionic, so I am not the best person to be writing a post about transforamtion. I have always been deeply attracted to the Scorpio energy in others. And I do have a Crime Astrology Blog tucked away in cyber space, so it would seem on the suface I am attracted to Pluto subjects. I am still nowhere near what you would call a "Plutonian".

        Real Life Transformation

        If someone asked me what the most life transforming events in my life were, I would say my father's death, and the challenging relationship I experienced under Pluto tranists. The birth of my little boy was definitely life changing. The whole process of pregnancy to birth is a masssive transformation for any woman. However, the transformation I am talking about today is much less profound and life altering. I have been expereincing economic problems since I was born! I think I am destined to be a poor person the rest of my life (Pluto in the 2nd house). I have never had much money to spare, but over time I have learned to accept it (Chiron in Taurus perhaps). My partner works in a good job, but due to mortgage payments and loans and everything else, we hardly see a penny of it. My partner is currently under extreme pressure at work, his Boss is a tyrant and is always trying to humiliate him and make him feel small. The other managers at his workplace have been treated this way too, and one man left the office in tears. I am not a big fan of these large companies and their harsh and ruthless work methods.

        My partner wants to leave the company and change direction completely, he said he is tired and has no enthusiasm for his work. I have been reading all the articles in the Astro-blogosphere on transiting Saturn square Pluto and this aspect is probably influencing his choice, he has Saturn-Pluto natally. Saturn is in Cancer in the 8th house square Pluto in Libra in the 10th house, and he is six years older than me and has Pluto in the early degrees of Libra. Transiting Saturn in Libra is about to conjunct his 10th house Pluto, the tenth house is at the top of the chart and relates to career, goverment, bosses etc... and all these themes are activated.  I will experience the Saturn-Pluto conjunction in my second house, so finances, and the ability to earn money, along with issues around my own self-worth will all be highlighted in my life. To be honest I am not trained in any profession to even make a career for myself. I feel talentless at times, and I feel gulity for not training in a career early in life. Next year I will have a boom in Jupiter transits along with some starry aspects, which may bring some much needed luck. Over the past week I have been feeling low about the whole situation. Rather than sit around all day feeling depressed, I thought I would have a good sort out, clean the house and move some furnitutre around. Even that can get depressing because I never have enough money to buy new furniture, wallpaper and paint etc. It can get frustrating at times.

        Transforming Old Furniture

        I wanted to move the large table out of my living room, and replace it with a smaller desk. However, the desk I bought after I moved into the house is the most annoying desk you could have. I can't wheel my chair under the desk , and I always end up sitting sideways with a sore back. I really didn't want to use that desk again. I went into the garage and looked at my other desk, but it was old, scratched, faded and not at all attractive for the living room. I kept on rooting through the garage and I came across some self-adhesive wood-back paper. I originally bought the paper for the kitchen units in my old run down house, but I didn't think it would look good and so I never bothered with it. I moved house last year and so most of the "trash" from the old house is stored in the garage. Most people call me ruthless when I clear rubbish out, and on my moving day I didn't want to take old furniture and other household items that I no longer neeeded, and I began throwing it all out for the rubbish tip. My mother was shocked and kept taking pieces home with her, and my partner was saying we could still use those items, but to me it was all useless junk cluttering the place up.

        My Desk is Reborn

        Long story short, a packet of  two self-adhesive rolls that cost two pounds have saved my desk from the rubbish tip. The desk looks nice. I am not saying it looks like an expensive desk, but it has a nice surface to it now and it is in much better than it was previously. The most important part of this story is that I didn't spend a fortune on a new desk. However, I did have some guilty pangs over my ruthless dumping and I wondered what else I had thrown away in the tip that could have been re-newed. I could have thrown furniture away that could have been restored, painted, and fixed without spending a fortune. Some imagination, time and tender loving care could have given an old piece of furniture a new lease of life. It felt good saving something from the garbage and giving it a whole new life again. This first time effort of transforming old furnuture has stirred up an interest in this subject, and I want to look at different ways of bringing furniture back to life. It might become a new hobby of mine, and I will be at the boot-sales every weekend.

        The Astrology

        I wondered how all this related to my own natal chart, and I think it has some connection to my Venus in Capricorn in the 5th house square Pluto in Libra in the 2nd house. According to Sue Tompkins classic work on aspects, here is what she says about Venus-Pluto

        The Venus-Pluto person is usually brilliant at jumble sales, for often they have a talent for being able to 'regenerate dead clothes'. The articles of adornment that others have discarded, Venus-Pluto can pick up, possibly transform, and certainly make their own. Some Venus-Pluto often have the phenomenal talent for 'making do' a very useful talent for those forced to live on a shoestring. Even those not driven to making economies will still often wear old clothes and in the most staggering way.

        I enjoy watching makeover shows, but most of them cost massive amounts of money. I am attracted to the type of transformation that cost much less,  my Venus is looking really stingy now. I read that Virgo and Pisces will shop about in charity shops and boot sales. As a Virgo rising with three planets in Pisces I am attracted to these places. I enjoy looking through old stuff for bargains, and I  have worked in a few charity shops.

        Other Celebrities Transforming in a Venusian Way


        Some celebrities who share Venus-Pluto are:


        • Lauren Luke Make-up artist (Venus in Capricorn square Pluto in Libra)
        • Britney Spears - Pop-Star (Venus in Capricorn 4th house square Pluto in Libra 1st)
        • Warren Buffet -   Billionaire (Venus in Libra square Jupiter -Pluto conjunction in Cancer)
        • Kaye Ballard comedien and Cancer survivor, has had a face lift - (Venus in Capricorn in 4th house opposite Pluto in 10th house)
        • Clara Bow - Sex symbol, was swindled out of money, clothes and other items by her pal and live in secretary, who also tried to blackmail her. (Venus conjunct Pluto in Gemini in 4th house)
        • Naomi Campbell first ever black model to grace the pages of Vogue - transforming and paving the way for black models. Tumultuous love affairs. (Venus in Gemni in the 5th house square Pluto in 7th house) 
        • Marcel Cerdan Boxing Champoin. He had an affair. Early death by plane crash. Venus conjunct Pluto in Cancer in 5th house square Mars in 7th (Mars = Competitiveness and fighting)
        • Jennifer Love Hewitt has been voted sexiest woman on television. Parents divorced, she has spoken in interviews about her mistrust towards other women, root cause her father leaving the marriage. In Ghost Whisperer her character works in an antique shop (We were born around the same time she has Venus in Capricorn square Pluto).
        There are loads of examples but it seems the transformation element in love, money, beauty, and fashion is powerful.
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        Uranus square Pluto

        I talked about Uranus moving into Aries in this strange article Uranus in Aries Wake up Call. Here is a more descriptive article of this transit that I found very enlightening.

        "2012 is approaching, and along with it are all the many predictions and implications surrounding 2012. What do we believe? What can we expect? Some say Armageddon is nigh. Others say that the earth is going through a transformational shift where our planet, society will be so different from what we now know. Our today will be so different from our tomorrow. Yes, the earth is going through a transition. There are more people than ever before. We have more ways to destroy ourselves than ever before, just as we have more ways to save ourselves than we've ever imagined. Psychics predict earth changes. The Mayan calendar of thousands of years ends in 2012. Alien sightings are increasing. And it seems everyone has the answer... Our political candidates are all clamoring for change as never before. The media wants us to support their candidate. Big Corporations, Oil, Drug, Banking and Finance... all say that we should buy their version of hope and change. The question is from where is the answer going to come? Will it come from outside of us in the form of bigger government or bigger business in the form of taking more and more control OR will the change come from within, from inside each of us?

        Welcome to Pluto square Uranus.

        Beginning 2011 through 2015, Uranus, the planet of innovation and freedom will be in square with the planet Pluto, notorious for its desire to exert subtle but relentless power over whatever it aspects. This square will create a cosmic tension between freedom loving Uranus and power hungry Pluto. Who will profit and benefit from the creative innovative energies flooding from Uranus? The lovers of freedom, those free spirits with a desire to live their dream to bless the entire world with their brilliance. Or the controllers behind the scenes pulling the strings of governments and corporations? The Uranian energy of Freedom and Innovation will leave Pisces May 27, 2010 and move into Aries. Aries is the pioneer of the Aquarian Age. May 27, 2010 is the date in which events will heat up. This is the date to brace yourselves. This Uranian energy will be bursting forth in multiple duplications of itself, all over, popping up here and there, seemingly disconnected, but very much reacting from each other. Like squirting out inventions and inspirations coming through us, inspiring this and that new thing, unable to be contained, with a life almost of its own, transforming the planet through its agenda to upgrade, innovate and aggressively stimulate the impetus towards freedom". Read the rest here at Starwatch.
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        Colin Wilson: Mars conjunct Neptune

        I was perusing through the different people who had Neptune in the 4th house, and I came across the natal chart of Colin Wilson. I read through some of his biography, and I thought he would be an interesting example. Colin Wilson is a professional writer, he first came to prominence as a philosopher and novelist. He wanted to apply for a University scholarship but his father wanted him to go to work and contribute to the family budget. His father worked in the boot and trade industry, and he worked as a barman at night to make ends meet. He became resentful because he had to support Colin for two more years. It was his son's ambition to become a Scientist at this time, but unable to train he started work in a factory to make ends meet. He found the work hard, dreary and repetitive, so when he returned home he would spend his evenings reading poetry for emotional release.

        Astrologically Colin has Mars conjunct Neptune in Virgo in the 4th house, and this very potent conjunction expains why he often found himself in a state of discontent and why poetry provided his escape route and his solace. The need to stay in touch with the spiritual side of life is vitally important to him. He worked in a very repetitive job, and everyone knows this type of work can drag the spirit down. Although he didn't have to endure his factory work for too long and he found a laboratory job and felt a huge sense of release. He said that he had felt he had been let out of prison from the abyss of boredom in the factory job. Often natives with a Mars-Neptune contact can lose their sense of direction and they lose their sense of motivation.

        And now my loss of interest in science meant I no longer had a future. It seemed that society had no place for people like me, people who had no desire to 'get on in life'. Sooner or later, the headmaster would find out that I had no interest in applied mathematics or analytical chemistry, and I would be without a job. And then I would go to the Labour Exchange and be offered a choice of a dozen or so jobs that I found equally repellent. As far as I could see, I was going to have to spend my whole life doing jobs I hated. I continued to find an escape in literature, spending my weekends soaking in poetry. But this only made it harder to go back to work on Monday morning. And the physics master who was my immediate boss was a weak and trivial-minded man, who soon realised that I was there under false pretenses, and took every opportunity to inflict petty humiliations.


        He hated his routine work and felt angry at god for putting him there. He enjoyed writing and reading poetry and his journal writing was a powerful release for him. He felt angry because he had to do repetitive jobs day in and day out. He didn't want to play the game anymore, and decided to himself that he would take his own life. At this critical juncture in his life he said that he suddenly became two people.

        I became two people. I was suddenly conscious of this teenage idiot called Colin Wilson, with his misery and frustration, and he seemed such a limited fool that I could not have cared less whether he killed himself or not. But if he killed himself, he would kill me too. For a moment I felt that I was standing beside him, and telling him that if he didn’t get rid of this habit of self-pity he would never amount to anything. It was also as if this ‘real me’ had said to the teenager: ‘Listen, you idiot, think how much you’d be losing’, and in that moment I glimpsed marvellous, immense richness of reality, extending to distant horizons. So I re-stoppered the bottle and went back to my analytical chemistry. I felt relaxed and light-hearted and totally in control of myself. This mood of strength lasted for two or three days, then gradually went away. But I no longer felt trapped and vulnerable.Forty years later, Maralyn Ferguson told me, as we walked by a lake in California, that she believed that everyone who achieves anything original in literature or philosophy has been at some point on the brink of suicide. I suspect that this is because anyone who has looked into this abyss achieves the separation of the real self from the inessential self, which is like being born.

        It is surreal how Colin Wilson describes his fourth house conjunction with such accuracy. If you pick up any astrology book you will read that Mars-Neptune is on some kind of spiritual quest and that this contact often has a dislike for physical work. These are the spiritual warriors of the zodiac, and they are driven to seek the spiritual experience in life. Mars represents the independent act of separation from complete fusion and chaotic life (Neptune). Individuality or any act of self-affirmation does not exist in Neptune.

        The Mars-Neptune aspect appears in the chart of a computer genius, he set up major companies involving technology (Uranus is at the apex of a t-square). Despite material success he felt there was still something missing, and he up and left his company and travelled abroad on his own spiritual quest, he did return, but it seems he needed a few months out of  his executive business life to find his direction.

        Colin Wilson has expressed this potent conjunction in writing and he has published works on the strength (Mars) to dream (Neptune). He has the intuitive ability to tap into collective expression, and he motivates others by inspiration. Often Mars-Neptune hates to live a dreary life and often expression can be found in art, dance, writing, and healing, or any activity that combines the energy and motivation of Mars and the need for fusion, spirituality and collective sensitivity (Neptune).

        Liz Greene in her phenomenal work: Neptune and the Quest for Redemption has this to say about Mars-Neptune:

        For Mars-Neptune, aggression and desire cannot easily be directed outward into life, because of the fear of separation this invokes; it may seem better not to desire at all. Sexual disinterest and general apathy are common accompaniments to alcoholism and drug addiction. The death wish is obvious in these expressions, and so is the element of masochism; if one merely want s to exit the stage, one can find less painful and drawn out means. Mars-Neptune is also linked with sexual masochism, as well as it's reverse. The desire to inflict pain. The confusing medley of inverted desires, guilt, longing for fusion, rage, and impotence, reflects a powerful but thwarted identification with the redeemer-victim. It arises not from any intrinsic Mars-Neptune "evil", but from a personality which is too infantile to meet the challenge of expressing the myth in creative and life enhancing ways.

        Colin Wilson described his own Mars-Neptune contact rather too well. Being a writer he can explain his inner life with precision. He can be highly romantic and idealistic, but there is always the danger of  being undiscriminating and unrealistic. He can have an active imagination, and like all Neptune contacts he will at times feel like the helpless victim. The aim is to join his strength, actions, and assertiveness (Mars) with his dream (Neptune).
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        Brooke Greenberg: An Eternal Baby

        I had seen this little girl on television today, and wondered about her astrological chart. She looks absoloutly adorable in this photo (heart melts). The Doctors are saying she may hold the key to delaying the ageing process. Although according to what I have read they haven't found any special gene. Here is the story on Wikipedia:

        "Brooke Greenberg, (age 16) is a girl from Reisterstown, Maryland who has remained physically and cognitively similar to a toddler, despite her increasing age. Greenberg is about 30 inches (76 cm) tall, weighs about 16 pounds (7.3 kg), and has an estimated mental age of 9 months to 1 year. Greenberg's doctors have termed her condition Syndrome X.She was born with anterior hip dislocation, a condition which caused her legs to be swiveled upwards, awkwardly, toward her shoulders; this was corrected surgically. Otherwise, Greenberg appeared to be a normal infant.

        In her first six years, Greenberg went through a series of unexplained medical emergencies from which she recovered. She had seven perforated stomach ulcers. She also suffered a seizure. This was followed by what was later diagnosed as a stroke; weeks later, no damage was detected. At age five, Greenberg had a mass in her brain that caused her to sleep for 14 days. The doctors diagnosed the mass as a brain tumor. However, Greenberg later awoke, and physicians found no tumor present. Greenberg's doctor states that the source of her sudden illness remains a mystery".

        The Astrology

        Brooke has her Sun in exact conjunction to Neptune in Capricorn, and this sign rules the bones, teeth, and delay in development etc. Lots of children are born with these same aspects/signs, and don't suffer this condition, so I am only judging the chart without a birthtime. Neptune rules compassion, suffering and confusion and would explain why her condition has baffled Doctors. She was diagnosed as having a brain tumour after sleeping for 14 days, and when she awoke there was no tumour present. The Mysteriousness of her whole illness could be Neptune at work here, and things are never as straightforward as they appear to be when this planet is involved. Individual's with  the Sun in aspect to Neptune in their chart can appear at times spaced out, or even asleep. They often appear as if they are living in their own secluded world. There is also a delicacy in appearance in some Sun-Neptune natives and they can be highly susceptible to illness.

        The Sun is also in exact conjunction with Uranus, and she is the focus of much scientific study (Uranus) even if the Doctors and those in authority are confused over her condition (Neptune in Capricorn). Uranus is straight out of science fiction, and he has very lofty ideas for the future. Brooke Greenberg is the new muse of the Scientific world. The triple conjunction of Sun-Uranus-Neptune is a powerful feature of this girl's chart. Mercury the planet of communication is also in Capricorn in wide conjunction to her Sun-Uranus-Neptune configuration. Brooke Greenberg's mental development is that of a 1 year old. In a chart with a child with normal development we would say she is very imaginative and original. However, she would need some mental pursuits to express these higher aspirations. You can you apply all this to her life development, but it would be read in a very different manner.

        Little Brooke has Venus unaspected in the sign of Pisces unaspected. This symbolizes that she has a deep need to feel loved and special. Venus in Pisces attracts lots of sympathy and she is a well loved little girl. She is treated as a very special human being in the world. Venus is exalted in the sign of the Pisces, and symbolizes at it's most abstract level, love and compassion for everyone. Mars the planet of motivation and action is in the sign of Cancer (fall) opposite the triple conjunction (Sun, Uranus, Neptune). Often Mars-Neptune is another aspect that can develop a poor immune system or weakened body. With Mars in hard aspect to Uranus this shows us that she has a rebellious personality,  and she aims to be individualistic. There is a lot of originality in her chart for reasons we know, and her nervous system is heightened. The opposition involves the parental signs of Cancer and Capricorn. These two signs show how we get our needs met, and our emotions and nurturung instincts (Cancer) and the polarity to these character traits is self-sufficieny, maturity and growing up etc (Capricorn). It is a profound opposition considering she is an adult in a baby's body. The aspect of Sun-Mars may represent that strong sense of self she has developed.

        Pluto, the planet of transformation, change and evolution is placed in it's own sign at the apex of a t-square with Chiron and Saturn. This difficult fixed configuration shows much soul strength is needed here to be born into a life with such insurmountable obstacles (Chiron-Saturn) concerning her place as an individual in society and of being different (Saturn in Aqua- Chir in Leo). With Pluto driving the t-square she is headed for fast transformation this lifetime.

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        Astrology - The Difficult Profession

        I have deep respect for Astrologers who promote the awareness and validity of astrology all their lives. They tirelessly work to advance, update and bring this acient knowledge into public awareness. Here are some inspirational quotes on the work you do.

        Along with a strong belief in your own inner voice, you also need laser-like focus combined with unwavering determination. Larry Flynt

        Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it. Buddha

        If you believe in what you are doing, then let nothing hold you up in your work. Much of the best work of the world has been done against seeming impossibilities. The thing is to get the work done. Dale Carnegie

        Success means having the courage, the determination, and the will to become the person you believe you were meant to be. George Sheehan

        All labour that uplifts humanity has dignity and importance and should be undertaken with painstaking excellence. Martin Luther King Jr


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